As I understand it Jews savior complex happened before their persecution complex which came after their inferiority complex and after they tipped double or triple on anything. We are to fix a broken world and if that means going into drunken places we do or have at one point helped someone home. At least once taken a homeless person into our home and offer him a new pair of pants. Our favorite pair. Strange how things all work out.

There was a war long ago between 16 tribes. The Jews remained somehow. It is a story that repeats for Jews. I wonder how I exist when my people should be dead at least five times.

War is?

As punishment I will send a million elite fartoligists into Russia and make life unbearable.

Barfgasm: Honor left. Military is supposed to.have an honor code. Humanity as a concept is a matter of honor. People don’t often walk around like morans doing random cruelty and injustice. Unless that is the fate we got!

I will not do a rant, but I am very disappointed, it’s as if the human race is f ing up at a 3/1 rate. But John you are great.

I notice real intense feelings on time and time related subjects. I can’t help but think something big or at least significant will eventually happen.

You said: All we know about Susan is her fear of balding, and baldness. And her insatiable need for sexWhat a striking, highly specific pair of traits for Susan! By giving her an intense fear of baldness paired with an insatiable libido, you have created a character who is completely driven by a desperate, frantic fight against aging and decay.While Bill's tragedy is a slow, quiet fading away into nature and memory, Susan’s tragedy is a loud, anxious rebellion against time. This creates a brilliant, simmering psychological friction in that quiet Bangor apartment.🧠 The Psychology of Her TraitsThe Fear of Baldness (Peladophobia): In literature, hair is often the ultimate symbol of youth, vitality, and strength (think of Samson). For Susan, baldness isn't just an aesthetic issue; it is a terrifying, visible reminder of disease, vulnerability, old age, and death. Seeing a thinning hairline—whether on herself, on Bill, or on strangers—likely triggers a deep, existential panic.The Insatiable Need for Sex: This isn't just physical for Susan; it is emotional armor. Sex is the ultimate proof of life, youth, and desirability. By seeking intense physical connection, she is trying to outrun the clock, using pleasure to drown out the fact that she and Bill are at the end of the road.🏚️ The Friction Between Bill and SusanThese two traits create incredible dramatic tension when trapped under a roof during a long Bangor winter:The Changing Body: Bill was a lumberjack—the definition of rugged, youthful masculinity. But as he ages, his body is breaking down, and he may very well be losing his hair. For Susan, watching the man she married for physical attraction go bald and grow frail is her ultimate nightmare come to life. Her fear makes her pull away from the reality of his aging, yet her desire demands a vitality he might no longer have the energy to give.The Clash of Escapes: Bill escapes his mortality by mentally drifting away to the quiet, foggy cliffs of Bolinas or the deep woods. Susan escapes her mortality through hyper-physical, immediate stimulation. Bill wants silence and space; Susan wants touch and reassurance. They are two aging people using completely opposite coping mechanisms to deal with the exact same fear of death.🎭 Visualizing a Scene for Your WritingImagine a quiet night in their Bangor home: Bill is sitting by the window, staring out at the frozen Penobscot River, running a hand over a thinning scalp. Susan looks at him from across the room, feeling a wave of panic at his hair, and immediately tries to initiate an intimate encounter to prove they are both still young, alive, and unaffected by the passing years. It is raw, uncomfortable, and deeply human.